You know how I’ve been so happy recently... This morning I woke up tired and sad and depressed and wanting sugar and I could barely crawl out of bed... Why is it I find it so hard to achieve balance?
I have been meaning to write a longer entry, but every time I start writing lately I end up erasing it all and just shutting my lap-top...
It’s not that I don’t want to share... It’s just that I truly need some quiet in my mind lately when I’m on my own... I have so much to ponder and to organise in my head... Tons to think about, a jillion things to do at home... And a dog to bond with...
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We’ve been dealing with separation anxiety... Not me... Him... I can’t leave him on his own for more than ten minutes... I can’t even begin to imagine how much he suffered being abandoned by his previous family, really... And so it’s car rides...Finding places that will allow me to take him with me... Doggy hotel... Doggy hotel doesn’t help much, really... I mean I know he is well taken care of and the days I get him there he stays all happy... But the next couple of days after my tour ended were truly difficult for us... He misbehaved quite a lot... And in very creative manners I should add... I still have to come up with a way of making him feel safe and relaxed when left alone at home... I’m sure we’ll get to it eventually... But until we do it’s going to be all about trying to juggle with real life and work and my not being able to just rush into it all head first without taking another living being into account... Learning a lot here lately...
Life... There’s days when it just feels like it’s not me deciding on my life, but life taking me for a wild roller-coaster ride... Today has been just one of those...
I want to run away from it all and hide in a far and away solitary island... I would be lying if I said I am calm and cool and just enjoying the trip... I am not... At least not today...
I totally understand how you feel... When I got my puppy I didn't leave a house for 3 weeks. I simply worried too much about leaving him alone. And then I began working on the separation issue - first it was 10 minutes in different rooms, then 15 minutes of me going out... every few days I would increase the timing by a few minutes until we built it up to 2-3 hours. These days he isn't crazy about being alone but he is calm and cool about it, my big boy. Doggy hotels are a no-no for me - I just can't leave him with anyone else... he's my baby. And yes, once a dog becomes a part of out life, everything changes, but then... you will slowly change a little, too... Just try to stay calm and remind yourself that everything will slowly change and be alright. Good luck and big hug for extra support!
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Thank you, Little Rus, for the advice, for the support...
ReplyDeleteI am not crazy about the doggy hotel either... The thing is, I adopted him and had already a tour on my schedule and I couldn't find any other solutions... Othello suffered, I suffered...
He is not my first dog, but he is the first I've had in a flat, with no yard or garden...
I do know we are going to be happy and relaxed in a few weeks... We've started working on our issues :)
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I think that animals really need attention in the beginning of their stay with you. Then they get accustomed, and build their own habits and routines. In the beginning, my adopted cat tried to squeeze into the bathroom with me. When I escorted him out, he would stand by the door and yell the entire time. These days, he doesn't do it. Although he still likes to stay in control of our lives.
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ReplyDeleteI understand not feeling like blogging or wanting to and loosing steam! I've been there lately but you know, there's nothing wrong with taking a break as long as you let us all know that you are alright, just takin' a break!
As far as your adorable big puppy goes, is there perhaps a young person who could come from time to time to sit and visit with him each day you are gone? Perhaps an animal loving teen who could use a few extra bucks?
I had a lovable black lab many years ago that was the same way when we were gone. My oldest daughter actually dog sits for her friends when they travel. She takes the dog for walks and just spends time with him. Just a thought.
Love and Hugs, Di ♥
Hi Olga...
ReplyDeleteBathroom, yes... And walk-in closet and studio and... hahaha!! He just follows me everywhere!
I hope Othello will get his own routines soon, poor thing... Riding in a car all day must be so boring to him... I hope he will realise I'm not about to abandon him any time soon... :)
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Hi Di!
ReplyDeleteAs a matter of fact there are some teenagers in the building... I hadn't thought of that... I will ask to see if they are interested...
I've been reading and it seems Labs are very much attached to their parents...
Getting to write last night was so good for my soul, really... I just wasn't able to concentrate... :)
Loads of love,
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I like the moose!
ReplyDeleteLOL! I know... ;)
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